All We Need Is Love...Right?

(OMG I just went on this whole rant and forgot it is Wednesday which means Hump Day Challenge...oops. This week's Hump Day Challenge will be tomorrow, my bad I have real work to do around my house and errands, tomorrow folks....it will be good I promise)

Happy Ash Wednessday! (do people say that I hope i am not offending anyone) Now, I am not Catholic but I am giving up white flour and sugary carbs and candy for lent! I have already kept myself from consuming an English muffin and Nutella this morning for lent. I am so out of control with my food issues that I need something to commit to and rules to follow to make good food choices. After Easter (which is when lent ends right?) I will make slow reintroduction and not over indulge in theses types of foods or use them to comfort and/or calm my emotions...that's gonna take work for now I will just follow my lent rules. I could have promise to do laundry everyday...oh weight I already did that...LOL

A week and a half to two weeks from now I will be a part time working full time mom. The Hubs reminded me of that and I got this depressed feeling that over came me. I don't know if I will ever like that Working mom or part time title nor will I ever get my house running like the well oil machine that I want. My Doc yesterday suggested I try taking sertraline an oral medication to help with what she calls my "overwhelm" and to see if helps me over the hump. I am scared to death to take depression drugs. My Doc says I have this overwhelm which leads to anxiety about what is not getting done which leads to depression. Ok, makes sense but is there really a magic pill? Do I have to take it?

I am scared it is going to cause me to have horrible thoughts of suicide which it says has happened in some users or that I am going to forget to take it and go on a crazy killing spree like in an article that I have read about. In said article the author referred to every mass killing suspect has been on some sort of mental health drug. Which is the reason I took myself off Ritalin for my ADD (I think on ly one was related to Ritalin). I hate the pharmaceutical option for every single ailment we have in this day and age! I want to wake up and be normal and do what I want because the human body is a miraculous thing and works so well or does it? I don't want to have to take drugs or even supplements. I use Essential Oils which are great but once again I don't want to have to take something every day! However I would like to feel "normal" and not need to use food or drink for comfort or argue with my self to get out and run and clean my house and do what I need to do....

I want to believe I can regulate my moods and everyone can fix there problems with diet, exercise, natural things from the earth like essential oils ect... Problem being you actually have to eat right, exercise. What about if your ailment is a problem in the actual get up and go, to do what is right then what the fuck is a person to do? And how about those of us who forget to take their meds? ...Oh my gosh this whole writing might be convincing me that I do need to be on something to be normal! But how is "normal"  taking drugs to regulate or alter your brains chemistry?! Can we adjust our lives, our expectations of people to accept them the way they are rather than force them to be "normal"? If we all could go with the flow and pick up the slack where the others leave and not get bitter about it....Fuck that will never happen, we do need medications so that we crazies don't irritate the normals of the world. Or are the normals of the world the ones who need to be medicated or at least be less irritated?!

Tolerance is what we need. Regulation is what we need. Balance is what we need! Maybe some of us need outside help, in the form of correct nutrition, essential oils or supplements or even medication to achieve that balance. I am currently struggling with ego right now, I think! I hate the whole trial and error with meds. I just want an easy answer. I am encouraged to know many of my fellow "crazies" (please don't take offense to that term it is very much a term of endearment) have used medication and have normalized their life and many have only had to use them to get over a hump, which if I do finally decide to try the meds this will be my intentional plan as well. To the normals of the world please understand, to us crazies you are the ones who are crazy. We can't figure out how you are normal. We love you very much and we pray that we could be more like you everyday, but know that together we create balance. Let's be nicer to each other and understand each others world as much as possible and then maybe just maybe, then we could lose the label of crazies and normals and just be humans. We all have challenges, lets love each other out of them, instead of medicating each other out of them!

All we need is love, ditch the ego. Fuck stress have more sex...(I have wanted to use that line for weeks it seemed to fit here) Have a great rest of the day lovely's!

#Everyday2015

Super Bowl Sunday!

It is Superbowl Sunday!!! The Seahawks are prepared The 12s are prepared! The Girl and I have glittered up our Seahawks make up and added tiaras today! It is a perfect day to wear a crown! I do have a Hat that my MIL made for me that has been my lucky hat standing by. I will be putting it on later around game time or just after kick off!

Today is a family day, a friend day, a day of celebration. A day to leave the diets,stress and drama outside and enjoy some yummy foods and drinks and a great game and a great show. Jello Shots are a tradition here, a good friend of mine started the tradition a few years ago and now she lives in Vegas so I continue to make them. I am tearing up at the thought of the amazingness that today is for the team and for the 12s!

Always Compete! I'm In! We all we got! We all we need! 12 Life!

I am a fan looking forward to the opportunity for my team to raise that Lombardi trophy once again I am so excited! Sex Love and Washing Clothes is not so much a focus for me today, no deep thoughts or motivations today, just celebrations! We have had our good luck sex, I will start some laundry and I will be with many that I love today!

Here are my words of wisdom today: Be in the moment! Don't be afraid to break out the Glitter and be flashy! Make memories in this glorious day given to you. Let's go Hawks! use your Seahawks voice! I bet you all will be hearing a lot of 12s today! I am so happy and over joyed and excited!

And nervous!

I hope one day you all have the opportunity to see your team go to the Superbowl! I am going to enjoy today. I can't hold back my smile and sometimes tears of joy! Go hang with your family, have some drinks and yummy food and love those around you! It is like Christmas only more versatile! Have a great day folks!

Love
#Everyday2015 #GoHawks

Be the Kind of Friend You Want to Have

It's Saturday, I am waking up on the couch. Not the way I expect this morning to go. The Boy got sick yesterday at his birthday party! They had played video games, hopped in the hot tub (as they said) ate a snack and as I was making dinner the boy ran through the kitchen to the bathroom to throw up. They had been playing video games with The Hubs, after he puked he went back out to the family room where they were playing and continued. I thought maybe an allergy or from excitement, he had no fever but then threw up again (and twice more before his friends actually left) and I decided we had to call the parents and have them pick up their boys. The Boy was not even in the mood to party he didn't even want to open presents, poor kid. . We cut the cake and let the other kids have some cake and opened presents and they left. I think he puked 10 or more times by midnight. 

The Girl had a sleepover planned with her Best friend and we had to cancel. The two girls had talked about having their first sleepover the night of the Boys party (I usually let opposite kid invite one friend over during the other siblings birthday to give them something to do to not bother the other's party). She was so disappointed, I think more than The Boy. Both of my kids are pretty good at going with the flow so The Girls reaction caught me off guard. Her and her Best friend haven't had a chance to have a sleepover yet, they decided to miss another girls birthday party for the chance to spend the night alone. So when it was canceled she was stuck by herself. There was still the party both girls could have gone to but The Girl was so upset she hadn't decided if she wanted to go until about 9pm. I told her that it was probably too late and wasn't very nice to plan not to go to a party to spend time with someone else and then when it doesn't work out decide to go all of a sudden. Maybe her other friend wouldn't mind though...

Things don't always go as planned. Having a back up plan is fine but I feel bad when it is  a person who is the back up plan. I guess it would not have been bad to let the Girl go to her friends party but I just felt that wasn't the best way to be friends. If you make other plans that don't work out how does that other person feel being the "back up friend" maybe she would have just been thankful to have seen The  Girl anyway... Everyone has plans that fall through. Sometimes you just have to deal with it and others it is fine to fall back on the back up plan. I guess it would have been fine for the girl to have gone as long as it is not the only time she spends with that friend. 

In life you have to roll with the punches. Sometimes you just have to deal with disappointment you don't always get the opportunity of a back up plan. It sucks to be the friend that everyone comes to hang out with when no one else is available, but at least you get to see the friends. I always leave invitations open. If you already have other plans when I invite I don't take it personal but I always leave the door open, if things change give me call you are more than welcome to join. But if we had plans and then something else came up and you bail on me because something more exciting comes up I may feel like I am a back up friend but be honest! It is pretty chickenshit (couldn't think of a better word) to say "oh I don't have a babysitter" and then see photos of them hanging out with someone else on Facebook or hear it from another friend. Please just be honest no reason to lie I won't take it personally and niether should you. Or the worst is when you tell Friend B that you already have plans (with Friend A) and can't go to their party and then friend A,"doesn't have a sitter" and bails on you for the Friend B party. If Friend A would have been honest all of you proabably could have spent the time together! Keep your word and be honest, that is what I am trying to teach my kids. 

I am the type of person, we are the type of household where friends are always welcome. I don't really get upset being the back up friend, I don't take it personal I am just thankful to have friends to spend time with at my house or your house or Friend B's house regardless of the original plans, usually, there are those instances I want to do what I want to do then I am on my own and we'll see you next time. It kind of goes back to the whole don't take things personal. But if I am the one you are calling when everyone else is busy but you don't keep or ever make plans with me don't expect me to be waiting for you all the time and then get mad when I am not. 

Friends are important and are always welcome! Friends are the family you choose! Just know, there is a limit to what one person can do and be there for you. There is a quote that goes something like, "don't cross oceans for someone who won't cross the street for you" Which is a good lesson to learn. With that said, however, you cannot keep score or expect you friends to be there for you as much as you are for them if you wait for them to even out the give and take you may will be disappointed. You should be the type of friend you want them to be and in the end it will may (or may not work out) but you can look into the mirror and say I am a good friend. Even when they are not there for you. One day you will need a friend and the one who is there may surprise you. Maybe you haven't always been there for them and they will out of no where step up and help you out and you will be surprised and you will probably feel bad that you haven't' been there for them but just know in the end the score doesn't matter. People and friends matter. Be the type of friend you want and you will have many friends to love and who love you.

Be the best type of friend to your spouse, don't make them the back up friend! Spend time just the two of you going out but also spend time with other friends and couples. If you are best friends with your spouse you will never feel lonely and when those "back up friends" bail on you it won't be so bad! It will give you more alone time and you know what that means with your spouse...bow chick a bow wow!

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